Let's Go!!!

Ahem....let me clear my throat for this one. "I AM READY!"

Ready for what, you say?

Ready to meet this little one inside of me, ready to take on the challenge of labor, ready to hand over any thought of attention to her, ready to clean up messes, ready to be overwhelmed with pride, joy, love, and maybe even disappointment sometimes. In a nutshell, I am ready to share my world.

I could not have said that this time last year or the year before that...I was definitely not in a place to completely share my world...the most people got were bits and pieces when it was convenient for me...*This is the part where the picture becomes like water, indicating a memory is about to be replayed*

This time in 2010 I was having the time of my life in South Korea! I was living it up, as they say. I was a card-carrying member of the Rainbow Coalition (if you are privy you know how WE do). This time last year, I was planning my next adventure...and starring in my very own reality TV show (ya know the kind that we find out later is staged?) LOL.

Do I miss it? Well, duh! Would I trade in my current situation to go back? In a heartbeat. Do I regret where I am now? Absolutely not!

Although I have embraced and really gotten used to the fact that I will soon (as in less than a week, hopefully) be a full-time, single mommy, I do not dare seek asylum behind the thought process of "I wouldn't trade it for the world!" I can't stand to hear people say that. Yes, the amazing person inside of me has brought me to a higher place in life; mentally, but my more matured mind also acknowledges that if I could have it any other way, this is not how I would craft my life right now.

If anything, I'd ask for a do-over and do things the right way...i.e. love, marriage, baby carriage. But even more than that, I'd first be heading "back" to another country to see more of the world, and experience more adventures. The difference in my current adventure is that I don't get to choose to leave; I'm a mommy, and will forever be a mommy. Not the worst thing I could be right? Some things come to mind like, crack-whore, bum, liar, pessimistic, narcissistic, etc. LOL.

Anyhoo, this blog is just to share my feelings day in and out of being a mommy...however, some posts won't even be related to being a mother. ♫It's my prerogative...I can do what I wanna do!♫

I've had the responsibilities of a mommy for the past 9 months. Yep, from the day I confirmed by daughter was on the way, I've had to take care of me and her, make decisions that would affect both of us, and use better judgement for her sake. I've now had some practice, and I can say, I'm proud and amazed at the diamond that has been created during this time of pressure.

God has rebuilt what I thought was torn down, reaffirmed me, and reminded me that my mistakes don't make me less of anything. It just gives Him another opportunity to show His greatness in my life. I am an over comer; I always have been, through Jesus Christ.

So, all in all, I am ready! Ready to walk in purpose....yep, motherhood definitely gives me a distinct purpose in life. No, that's not "all" I am purposed to be, but for now, I will focus my energies into building a solid foundation for my daughter's new life into this ever-changing world!

Until next time; if you change your perspective,  you'll change your life!