Yo! It's officially been a month (30 days) of being a mother...and I'm still alive! Yep, through sleep deprivation and being everything to my daughter, including her nutrition, I am yet alive!
I will not lie, it's been pretty hard! Probably--no, definitely--the most challenging thing I've yet to endure in my lifetime...it's been so hardcore, that my birthday came and went, and I wouldn't have noticed (or cared) were it not for the amazing people in my life. Those women who told me I'd survive, were right...but few shed light on the "in between" of delivery and now.
It must be the same selective memory that allows women (present company included) to not remember the physical pain of childbirth. Most of my labor I can describe aptly with words...but there came a point where words were not a good fit to describe the physical feeling I endured. See...I had to call it a "feeling," because pain or pressure just doesn't do it justice! LOL.
Anyhoo...all in all, Nyomi and I have had a good first 30 days. Thank God SHE is still alive. LOL. She seems to be a pro at everything she does...eating, sleeping, wailing, pooping;, and stealing every heart she encounters. It's me who is the amateur. :-)
She is progressing steadily though. She holds her head up (being nosy), is very alert and responsive to sound and faces; she even checks out the scenery around her! She is babbling already, and I receive a genuine smile on the regular now!
AND, today, on 3 separate occasions, she has gone (and stayed) to sleep with no help like a big girl! I mean no rocking, not during nursing, no tears! I am impressed and grateful for the reprieve. We must be nearing a milestone marker or something. Even if not, it shows me that it can be done! As my sister (and a complete stranger today) told me, "Give it a few more months and things will be so much easier. You will breathe and enjoy being a mom!"
In spite of the lack of sleep, the sore nipples, the frustration because I can't seem to console her, every morning I wake up, look over, and thank God for her. Not because I wouldn't have it any other way, but because I was entrusted with such an extraordinarily precious life! If that doesn't make a person stand taller and want to be better, nothing will!!!
Until next time, remember, it will all get better in time; and you should too!
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